Monday, January 31, 2005
Rock the Boat, Don't Rock the Boat Baby
I just found out I was born the same year the word "disco" was coined.
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Monday, January 24, 2005
Mind the Gap
Some 18 inches of snow on Saturday. It started around noon & ended after I'd already gone to bed. Sunday, there were heaps. People were shoveling their little plots of the sidewalk & their steps & digging out cars. The kids two doors down built a little snowman in the yard & one of them, a small girl, was rolling around in the snow in her white & silver down jacket. Her dad & mom were just out there watching as the kids had the time of their lives.
A few years ago, a roommate I had took me sledding. I got up early (8:00 or 8:30) to feed the cat & she was dressed & ready. She asked if I was up & if I wanted to go sledding. We walked down to the park, threw a few snowballs at some kids, and slid down the little hill by the swimming pool a half-dozen times. Time of my life.
Joe & I talked about sledding on Sunday when the snow had stopped but so much was on the ground. But, we didn't wake up until 10 & then my sister called & I talked to her for awhile & then we watched a little of "Parenthood" & made lunch & before we knew it, it was 4:00 & would have been dark soon. Plus, maybe all the plastic sleds were sold out at the drugstore.
I would like to be the "type of person" who gets up & gets to the park on time to slide down a hill. I think the difference between being "youthful & energetic" and "adult & boring" is the difference between playing in the snow & staying snowed in. I also know the difference between the two is just getting your butt out the door.
But, it's hard to be motivated & to have the energy. I really do not have as much energy as I used to. There's still the grey cloud, which I've never really emerged from & maybe never will completely, but maybe that's not all of it. Maybe it's also that I'm older now too, don't exercise enough, have the comfort of a warm home & boyfriend who lives there with me.
I feel like I need to fight this feeling of lethargy more than I do. I just don't enjoy everything I used to enjoy. Theoretically, I want to be the girl playing in the snow, & when I can get out there, I think I like it; it's just so damn hard to get out there & do it.
But, I am trying.
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A few years ago, a roommate I had took me sledding. I got up early (8:00 or 8:30) to feed the cat & she was dressed & ready. She asked if I was up & if I wanted to go sledding. We walked down to the park, threw a few snowballs at some kids, and slid down the little hill by the swimming pool a half-dozen times. Time of my life.
Joe & I talked about sledding on Sunday when the snow had stopped but so much was on the ground. But, we didn't wake up until 10 & then my sister called & I talked to her for awhile & then we watched a little of "Parenthood" & made lunch & before we knew it, it was 4:00 & would have been dark soon. Plus, maybe all the plastic sleds were sold out at the drugstore.
I would like to be the "type of person" who gets up & gets to the park on time to slide down a hill. I think the difference between being "youthful & energetic" and "adult & boring" is the difference between playing in the snow & staying snowed in. I also know the difference between the two is just getting your butt out the door.
But, it's hard to be motivated & to have the energy. I really do not have as much energy as I used to. There's still the grey cloud, which I've never really emerged from & maybe never will completely, but maybe that's not all of it. Maybe it's also that I'm older now too, don't exercise enough, have the comfort of a warm home & boyfriend who lives there with me.
I feel like I need to fight this feeling of lethargy more than I do. I just don't enjoy everything I used to enjoy. Theoretically, I want to be the girl playing in the snow, & when I can get out there, I think I like it; it's just so damn hard to get out there & do it.
But, I am trying.
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Wednesday, January 05, 2005
DON'T TELL ME WHAT TO DO
I hate it when my mom & sister tell me the following: you have to pick a dress (bridesmaids - even though I ultimately had NO SAY SO in the dress); you have to call so-and-so about the shower; you have to call so-and-so's mother; you have to come down her to PA this weekend; you have to go to Michael's with me to look at stupid little trinkets for the tables.
I hate wedding planning. I hate organizing wedding-type things. I hate that I might have to spend all this money to rent a space for the shower because my sister doesn't want to have it at A or B's house. I hate that I have to figure out where my mom & stepmom (who don't like each other) will stay when they fly up here for the shower.
I hate that my sister said Joe was going to read at the wedding & then "forgot" she said that.
I am the worst maid of honor in the world. I hate traditional weddings. This is going to be a long 4 months.
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I hate it when my mom & sister tell me the following: you have to pick a dress (bridesmaids - even though I ultimately had NO SAY SO in the dress); you have to call so-and-so about the shower; you have to call so-and-so's mother; you have to come down her to PA this weekend; you have to go to Michael's with me to look at stupid little trinkets for the tables.
I hate wedding planning. I hate organizing wedding-type things. I hate that I might have to spend all this money to rent a space for the shower because my sister doesn't want to have it at A or B's house. I hate that I have to figure out where my mom & stepmom (who don't like each other) will stay when they fly up here for the shower.
I hate that my sister said Joe was going to read at the wedding & then "forgot" she said that.
I am the worst maid of honor in the world. I hate traditional weddings. This is going to be a long 4 months.
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Tuesday, January 04, 2005
How to Change Your Life in One Day
Today, I have applied for one tutoring position; one high school English teacher position at a private, arts-based school; and one position for a non-profit organization.
Wish me luck!
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Wish me luck!
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